But I try not to lie, try is the key word. I have told my fair share of lies and hidden my fair of secrets but when you're in a relationship, especially one that you have been in for years, it's a bit tedious now. Frankly, it annoys me. I don't appreciate being lied to. I want no lies and no secrets but apparently that is too much to ask for nowadays. I honestly don't care if they don't want to start a fight or hear me complain but hiding stuff makes it worse. Especially when I do find out the truth. Before anyone readers make assumptions, I don't think my significant other is cheating BUT I do have a feeling he is keeping something form me and honestly, it's upsetting. I try to be as honest as possible. As you might have read my Relationship post, my current boyfriend and I have had a rough past. Lies, secrets and betrayal. Why did I stick around? I don't know, I love him. Things were getting better but since he and I don't spend a lot of time together any more because of occupations, I noticed a change in him. Like he's falling back into the same patterns as before. Frankly, I am disappointed. I wish things were different. I wish when he said he changed, he really did. So who knows what our future holds now. Maybe there is no future. Who knows.
I am also sick of my family telling lies about one another and hiding things from each other. We are family! Seriously, grow up!! I am just sick of it. I can't even deal with this anymore. Family obviously means nothing to some of the members in my family.
My friends, we lost touch but some I am still pretty close to and I appreciate how they can vent to me but when they make it seems like they are about to tell me something and then steer away from the topic. It's unnerving, I was always the go to friend to share things with because I am a very understanding individual and I try to help the best I can.
I don't know. Times have changed. People change. Traditions have changed. Maybe, I am overreacting. But it doesn't stop the fact that it upsets me.
-Star
